whenever i feel that i am ok, few breaths later i am back to square one.
i dont know why was i designed this way, maybe i was faulty from my moms uterus ,maybe its what i have deserved. i have never felt normal .ever.in.my.life.
this journey in fairness is not a surprise at all. i would be more surpeised if doctor 2 years ago would have told me something else. somewhere deep inside i always know: it always goes wrong.
why do i pretend i am surprised when i am not.
i have been prepared for it since day 1.
many years ago i told you dear...on the phone in my small room with yellow light. i told you some lies that realized now. it all did.
i might not be totally honest writing or voicing things, but i am honest with little me in my head, she knows it all. and she is dancing a jigga "itoldyouso itoldyouso".
what is left. i am
i dont know why was i designed this way, maybe i was faulty from my moms uterus ,maybe its what i have deserved. i have never felt normal .ever.in.my.life.
this journey in fairness is not a surprise at all. i would be more surpeised if doctor 2 years ago would have told me something else. somewhere deep inside i always know: it always goes wrong.
why do i pretend i am surprised when i am not.
i have been prepared for it since day 1.
many years ago i told you dear...on the phone in my small room with yellow light. i told you some lies that realized now. it all did.
i might not be totally honest writing or voicing things, but i am honest with little me in my head, she knows it all. and she is dancing a jigga "itoldyouso itoldyouso".
what is left. i am